Beth dropped onto a seat on the commuter train and looked at the man in
the chair facing hers. His thick mane of white hair, merry blue eyes, and
pudgy cherubs cheeks reminded her of a clean-shaven Santa.
Im Mack, he said, leaning forward to shake her hand.
Beth, she replied, then settled in her seat and pulled a
novel from her purse. She hoped he understood the subtle hint. After her
long, grueling day, Beth was in no mood for a chat.
Dont worry, Beth. I wont talk your ear off.
Macks dimples deepened with his grin.
Beth smiled at him, then opened her book and began reading. A whistle
blew and the train lurched forward. Beth smelled the strong odor of alcohol
a moment before she heard someone lumber onto the seat next to Mack. Two
feet settled on the empty chair beside her. She glanced up from her book
and looked into a pair of bloodshot eyes. The strangers soiled tie
hung loose, dangling from the collar of his wrinkled shirt. Stains decorated
his jacket.
The man squinted at the book in Beths hands. How anyone can
read that drivel eludes me, he slurred in a gravely voice. Drek
doesnt begin to describe McBrides books. Theyre abominations.
You like reading trash, honey?
Mack shifted in his seat and a faint pink flush colored his face.
Names Peter, gravel voice said. Whats
yours?
Beth turned her attention to her novel.
Im not good enough for you? Dont even want to tell
me your name?
Leave the lady alone, Mack said to Peter.
Is that what you are, honey? A lady?
Peter belched and Beth waved a hand in front of her face, trying to clear
the air.
Ive been writing for thirty years, Peter said. Good
books, important novels, tomes that could change lives. But what sells? Crap
like that. A turd on the bookshelf.
He launched into a stream of vitriol the likes of which Beth had never
heard. She wanted to reach into her purse for her notepad and jot some of
the words down so she could look them up later, but resisted the urge. It
might further incite him.
Macks mouth hung open and his face reddened. He cleared his throat.
Please lower your voice and watch your language.
Watch my language? Tell me, how does one watch ones
language? Peter lifted an arm and fluttered his fingers. Do you
see it floating around somewhere? Perfect example of the dumbing down of
America. Its imbeciles like McBride who hurry the process along. Him
and sheep like this stuck-up broad, who read what the bestseller lists tell
her she should. Lemmings.
Peter snorted, then took off on another tirade against the author.
A vein on Macks forehead bulged. Have you even read any of
his books?
Every one of the idiotic things. Dross.
If theyre so terrible, why did you read them?
I like keeping up with what the great unwashed considers entertainment.
Like cattle to a trough, they walk single file to the bookstore every time
that hack comes up with some new offal to clutter their minds. Morons made
the cretin rich.
Mack winced. I like his books, he said in a strained voice.
Good for you, old man. Peter clapped his hands. Stand
up to me. Tell me to go to hell.
Go to hell.
Im already there. Peter tilted his head back and
laughed.
Beth smelled his breath and crossed her eyes. Her head pounded.
Peters laughter died. He muttered several profanities, then grew
silent.
How can you speak like that in front of a lady? Mack pulled
an immaculate white handkerchief from his pocket and mopped his brow. How
can you say such things about someone youve never met? Is it
jealousy?
Beth wondered why Mack seemed so distraught. Was it because his generation
didnt use words like Peters in mixed company? Then she had a
horrible thought. Was Mack a nickname for McBride?
Peters expression softened. He patted Mack on the arm and aimed
a tortured gaze at Beth. I apologize for my uncivilized behavior. You
see, my real work, and my dreams, lie in a drawer, gathering dust.
He reached for the book and showed Beth his photograph above the name Pete
McBride on the dust jackets back flap. I spend my time
writing this shameful refuse. I have become that which I despise. I have
become a hypocrite.